How I feel about it all now

JimmyPage

Because my wife is a dub I do still attend meetings fairly regularly.

But that's before I was on this site.

Then as I was having my eyes opened the talks really started irritating me. "B.S.! This is all such B.S.!" My mind would scream. It was like my brain was fighting with all its might to resist the manipulation of the loaded language.

Now when I listen to elders, some of whom I think are nice people, give these talks about how close the end is I just really feel sorry for them. I think of all the years they have wasted in this cult paying attention to an annoying alarm ringing nonstop for decades on end.

What a relief it is to let go of the constant fear and guilt.

This feels like progress for me. Can anyone else relate?

GoddessRachel

This feels like progress for me. Can anyone else relate?

I can so relate! I think it's progress. I recently talked to a JW family member on the phone, and when she started talking about how close the end is, and she sounded so desperate, my heart just went out to her and I felt so sorry for her.

I moved far away from my JW's so I didn't have to go through the scream-inducing pain of sitting through the meetings, etc. It's painful. I miss my family a lot, but it's worth it, most of the time. Of course, this isn't my spouse we are talking about. My heart goes out to you too, but I think standing by your wife as much as you can is the right thing to do too.

Peace,

Rachel

WTWizard

I haven't been to a boasting session in more than three years. But I have seen posts including parts of those sessions as well as washtowel articles and Kingdumb Miseries. And I have seen some of those wastes of paper posted as well, and nothing makes any sense any more that they put out. It is all a blatant attempt to keep people from thinking for themselves.

In fact, I could start seeing the same thing about how close we were to Armageddon. Even while I was still active, I could tell that "close, and getting closer" was no guarantee that it would ever come into the present. I could think of many mathematical functions that are very close and forever getting closer but never intersect, and Armageddon was just another of those to me. Good thing I was good in math.

changeling

As we faded we felt the same way. Luckily we have completed our fade and do not have to sit and listen to BS anymore.

My heart goes out to you and all others (including my daughter) who are in your boat. You are doing a good thing trying to keep your family intact. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.

changeling :)

Quirky1

What a relief it is to let go of the constant fear and guilt.

Hail yes! Well said...

sacolton

Free your mind!

flipper

JIMMY- Yeah, I relate to rverything you say ! I too felt anger the first couple years after getting out and stopping attending meetings. I still can't hardly pick up a Watchtower without shaking my head at the idiocy of the information these " mind controlled freaks " at Bethel send out to rank and file publishers ! But - Like you, I mainly feel sorry for the rank and file members , including some of the elders at being duped and controlled ! But I still feel anger towards the leaders of the Watchtower society for hrting and controlling these people's lives though ! Peace out, Mr. Flipper

jaguarbass

I can relate to what you say.

The JW's are like Raymond Franze said. "The blind leading the blind".

How I feel about it all now

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