Looking back 30 years I now realize that even when I was an elder that something just did not feel
right about being a JW. I only had one person to talk to about my doubts, who was a former Bethelite.
Some of the stories that he told me about the inner workworkings at Headquarters really shook my
faith and I came to realize that they are just men. He also let me know that he even wrote articles that
appeared in the Watchtower. So much for the teaching that the information in the Watchtower is from
God's lips to minds of the Faithful and Discreet Slave. Now fast forward until a couple of years ago.
Being stuck in this religion due to family ties makes living ones life a little unsettling because of doing
things that you don't want to do. However I have toned back my JW life by leaps and bounds. I have not
gone from door to door for 8 years, but of course I still turn in my bogus hours, which has never been
once questioned. I only go to the Sunday meeting, so I am classified as being week spiritually. It was
not until I came across this site that I really started to feel better about myself because I am able to
express myself to someone without fear of retaliation. It is good to get these things off of ones mind
and heart. Reading all of your posts is one of the hightlites of my day. It is the first thing that I do
every day while I drink my coffee. I look forward to seeing what is going on in your lifes and how you
handle situations that are common to all of us. There is more Truth here than in the pages of the
Watchtower. There is more love here than in any Kingdom Hall. Here I feel like I have real friends
even though I have never met you or know what you look like. I just wanted to let you guys and gals
know this and to say thank you.
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