I have met quite a few folks from the forum, and between topics and posts about meeting so and so, and what is this person like, and the scandals, I felt kind of compelled to do a little mind dump on a topic about it and my experiences, and I hope no one thinks I didn't notice or remember them, these are just the most recent and those I am a bit closer to for one reason or another. The last thing I would want to do is talk about someone when I don't know if they would mind or not...sorry if it happens here.
First, I had a person I respect a lot tell me she thought I was much more together in real life and was really suprised when she met me...that makes me wonder what kind of wreck I read like on here. Then it dawned on me, most of us post here as a release of things that aren't so great. So in that context...if all you read is how this is bad and that is bad for someone, maybe they do sound like a wreck. I was actually more floored because I think I am wayyyy more screwed up in real life...just imagine Forrest Gump accent with the biggest freakin honker you ever saw...that's me. D'oh.
This same person, I won't name names but her initials are Crumpet, is also different than one might conclude from reading here. She is very intelligent, and her biggest "wreck characteristic" that I could see (usually I don't air things like this) is that she has been treated like something she is not for so long and by so many people that she believes it. She'll let you walk right over her and not even whimper just to keep from inconveiniencing you. Now, to be real, we all have screwed up stuff about us, and this isn't so much a screwed up thing as statement about how much someone really cares about other people. I met her...it's real. She's supersmart, supersassy, and a great person who is trying to get her life set up the way she wants it just like the rest of us are. I used her as an example because she's down and I can kind of kill two birds with one stone here.
Then at the fest, the biggest damn Mexic...Peur...San Antonian I ever met, and his cool as hell wife. We hung out and drove all over the damn place looking for a drink. I'm sure he'll be along in a moment...but the guy is freakin huge, looks like he might just rip your head off because he's freakin hungry. I wanna take him with me just so people will think I'm important and have a bad ass bodyguard. Of course I do wonder how in the hell you rode all that way in that car, dude. BUT, just from the posts, I expected a much different person...he's freakin awesome, and his wife won't shut the hell up (not really, she never talks but smiles in a way that she doesn't have to).
OMG...Miss and Mr. Rabbit. Sweetest souls I have ever met, ever. Ever. Ever. Ever.
Hemplover and family- There really isn't much I can say only because the words are tough to come by. Incredible, incredible talent in so many aspects, as well as some insanely warm and genuine realness. The most adult teenager I have ever met. Incredible genes there.
Sparky. I have known and considered her a very real friend for years. It's hard to believe it was only 2 and a half years ago she was talking me through one of the most tragic times of my life, on the phone. We spoke at that time for a few weeks, and then only via short PMs or e-mail here and there. For that same time I had not met her, but of course read here about her life and what she has done with the parts she had control of. I was honored by the fact that someone like her took the time to talk to me when I needed anyone to. Then I met her a few weeks ago. We were and are still the same friends, closer, but I had no idea how much more she is that what appears here. Like I said, we see the dark days, in real life some people light up the world around them when they are themselves in real life. This is one that reminds me I have no excuse to give up, give in, or think things are just too hard. And again I find myself on the phone being talked back to life by a person who I feel guilty for complaining to.
Zanex...no one knows him, I even think a few might think they don't like him. Anyone who meets this guy and talks to him for any length of time, in person, will walk away wanting to be someone he would call a friend. He is simply something you rarely ever see in someone, genuine, as real as real can ever be. The man IS empathy.
Theres more...much more. I wish I had been able to spend more time with Blondie, that level of intellect is something most of us will never realize we are around, because she does what she does for every reason except self importance. Every time I have seen her I end up with so much going on I reflect and realize I missed another chance to learn so much from someone. Maybe next time I'll do better.
The point is, THIS IS REAL LIFE, yes it is a forum where people can be fake and say whatever, but I have seen far more realness here than I have seen in the home I grew up in. I see better people here, too. Yea, we're all screwed up, but it's only because we are alive...and real.
We just come here because our homes were taken from us...and so now we live here sometimes in this whirlpool box beside the highway of our lives, and amazingly, it holds a really big family...black sheep and all.
I bet you guys are really ready for me to get a life and quit writing so much, huh? Kinda like "the old days" for me.
G'night
WLG