I apologize I am actually 40 that was a misprint.
Here it goes,
I was born into this religon in 1966 to second generation witness parents. From the time I can remeber even at three or four years old it was drilled in my head that this was the last days. What horrible thing to have to deal with when you are four. I remeber my parents very vividly telling me that I would probably not make it to kindergarten, the end would come before that.
School was horrible thru my early years, constantly being pulled out of classes due to some celebration they were having. However at the time it did'nt bother me that much because I was told we were doing the right thing, this was all just normal to me. Once I turned twelve everything began to change, I was just not going along with what my parents wanted me to do. Being that my dad was and Elder it seemed I was always held to higher satndard. It wasnt just good enough that we made our recommended ten hour a month in door knocking, we had to strive for fifteen and generally made it. The three meetings a week, Sat. and Sun. service Sun. morning watchower review before the meeting and my moms weekly bible study with was just to much to take.
I began to rebel and rebel hard, I had my first commitee meeting when I was 14 years old, it seems like yesterday, the thing I remeber most about the mmeting was details the elders wanted. Threre was me and another girl involved in a relationship she to also went to my hall. They brought her in and literally interigated her for hours until she sang like a bird. By the time they brought me they had both barrels loaded, where did you begin touching her, was your hands over her shirt or under her shirt. My dad was not even allowed in the room which my freinds and I called the sin den. I personally believe now they got off on hearing every detail. Through the rest of my school years it was pretty much the same thing except each offense became worse. I will have to go into it later about my parents drilling into my head about there will be no chace of me furthering my education past High-School because we will not be in this system of things long enough to use it. I will finish the rest of this story within the next few days, this is making me ill rehashing all of this. Thanks for your patients I am beginning to open up alot of old wounds I have not thought about in years.