You cannot go by emotions or feelings that you have god's spirit or "feel it".
You can talk to any individual in any religion that truly beleives it and each one of them will testify to the power of the holy spirit and miracles that they have seen in their own personal lives.
We all have gone door to door or talked to family members that are Catholic or born again or baptist and you hear the same story on how a Saint, or Jesus or God was with them, in their lives and how they could feel his blessing.
So are the ones blowing themselves up and feeling God's spirit and blessing when they're successful in killing innocent people. The atheist also feels connected with some forces out there.
So my good friend, forget your feelings, go by the fact that the watchtower is not any better than any other religion.
31 years in it and finally realize it's one of the worst because of what DF doctrine- blood issue and much more.