by ButtLight 14 Replies latest jw friends
Dear Buttlight,
That is funny, I was just doing that a few minutes ago. Bumping to the top some of my favorite info sites. Hopefully some of the new ones will be able to use some of the data we have been helped with by others. It is strange to look back and see how far we have come. It's kinda like a diary. Those who told me it gets easier were definatley right!!
Sincerely,
Lady Liberty
Looking back, I haven't changed one bit. I wasn't a lurker really, I just didn't know what to reply on.
1st post was on the topic "Do you ever use racial slurs?"
2nd was "Cosmetic surgery"
3rd was "What aggravates you most about people?"
What Aggravates me:
Hmmmmmmm..................As I ponder of all the things I hate(as my head turns in 360 motion)
Oh there is so many, to the point I think I may have to go into anger management class.
Drivers: I hate drivers... I hate them all! I think when I get on the road, people should pull of and let me pass them. I don't think I am asking too much now am I?
I hate the ones who go the speed limit and not 5 over Like I do. However, I may go as 10 or 20 depending on where I am going and if I am late, or if my kids are in the car. And I hate Cops. I really really can't stand them. I think they think that their "Stick" whatever it is called will make up for what they lack in the pants. You know when a cop is going the exact speed limit and everyone is following behind them and acting as if the don't speed ever? Hell I pass the cop 5 over and look right at him as I do it. They don't pull you over in a Honda CRV(better than a Mini Van)!
I hate mean people: I hate people who cut in line.....I remember once my husband and I were at McDonald's(hubby wanted to go) waiting in line looking at the menu with our 2 kids age 2 and 9 months and this guy who I think was in early 60's(alone getting coffee with his nice Rolex you know the type where the shit doesn't stink) and we looked at each other my husband a very few words wanted to say something. I said in a loud voice, " That's ok Honey, let him go he will Die soon." My husband laughed so hard, as I waved at the guy.
I hate people who are stupid: Like my Sister! When god was passing out brains, she thought he said Trains and asked for a slow one. Its like she is so stupid she has no idea or clue - and she is mean about it. Sometimes, I laugh but other times I say I don't like who you are, I love you but the person you are is so awful. I don't want to be around someone who makes me feel bad about myself etc.... then we don't talk for a week and she calls up and says "Hey can you watch my kid or lets go shopping", as if nothing had happened. You know the conversation where you have to tell someone something, and you hate doing it, and you just want to rip off the band-aid and get it over with. Yeah, I have to do it to her all the time....kind of funny if you think about it.
I hate Self Righteous People: I hate those who think thier family and friends and kids and job and ass are better than everyone else's. Well I have news for them, I am better...kidding. You know the type who go out in service everyday 24/7 because they were never really good in school and had to get a cleaning job to support 4 kids and the fact that their kid is dropping out of school to pioneer and be in the Drama etc.... I never really cared but I always felt that I was not good enough. However as I have grown up I think to myself "They scrub toilets."
Well anyways, there is many, many, many more but I am sure along the way you will here more from me!
Brooke
4th post was when I found one of my good friends "Nancy Drake" http://www.jehovahs-witness.com/6/80253/1.ashx
I haven't changed at all. Maybe a little bit wiser, and careful than before. I think being on JWD helped me realize, not to trust everyone as easily as I did before - I don't open my heart up like I used too because I am sick of it getting broken. I have one person on here to thank for that, it taught me a valuable lesson.
Brooke
When I look back at my first posts, I realize how much I didn't change. I still ask the best questions...
My first post:
OK, I've been staring at post after post for hours, done weeks of digging on the web, without speaking to a soul. I figure everyone had to start somewhere, so I just decided to throw it out.It's been 2 years now, and I'm a lot stronger than that guy was.I only recently came out of my "lockdown" phase (where you don't even speak about your feelings about "the truth") and have just started looking around. I know you guys can see my profile, etc, but I had to post this and just ask for some direction. Where do I go, what do I do? I have to assume someone out there knows what I am asking when I say that. Was there ever a time when you just decided it was time to come out into the open and look around at what is out there, time to find others like you? What would you tell someone to do first, looking back?
Where do I start rebuilding me?
Relearning how to learn was tough, but the hardest was reliving my past and sorting out what was real from what was fake. I don't think that will ever end. WLG
My first post was about alcohol use at Bethel, since I'd been there and done that. It was on like page 3 or 4 of the thread; I thought for sure it would be well hidden.
Larc (deceased), who had like a gazillion posts, came right back, and welcomed me to JWD. Considering as that it was the very first time I'd ever posted on any Internet forum anywhere...well, you know.
I was reading a few of my threads just now, and all I can say is WOW! Good thing they are buried far far away lol!
I'm not regretful about anything I've posted here, or anywhere else. It's always been me, at that moment of my life, wysiwyg. However, that was then, and this is now, and I wouldn't necessarily say the same things, or take the same positions, as I have over the past 4 years...or even that I might have taken last week. But, to paraphrase Mr. Paton from the early 1880's: 'New truth builds on old truth.'
