I completely feel you. If you chose a religion I will ask you to ask yourself this one question. Almost all christian religions are anti-gay. I have come to terms with myself and accept them now. At first I could not. I was already drinking and smoking within in year of leaving the JW's and leaving my parents while in my teens. But still I would try to stay away from "gays" saying to myself it was a sin. Right around 20 years of age I ran into a JW kid I grew up with. I maybe a few months earlier found out that he too left in his teens after coming out to his dad. He was kicked out of the house. When I saw him, all I could think about was how like me he has no family. It was at that moment that I no longer saw gay as gay. Unless they really flaming, that still gives me the creeps, but that's my right to have that opinion. Any how, latter when I wondered if I wanted to have kids, would I raise them in any religions. I thought, I don't want them to hate anyone because they are told God hates what that person is labeled as.
A far as if there is a God. At first I made it my goal to prove to myself there is not. I currently do not believe there is, but I came to terms with the believe brings people comfort so I do not want to take that away from them. So I don't get all preachy about trying to prove his none=existence to people. Plus I found a joy in doing good things with out the reward of a afterlife or what have you. I know I'm a good person. I feel confident If I saw you trying to jump start your car, I would stop and give you an hand. That just how I came to terms with it all. If you want to know how I disproved God to me. read the next line.. if not stop here! . I don't want to take that belief if it brings you comfort.
Is there a GOD?
Because JW's have to prove everything by using the bible when this question was poised to me it completely made sense.
Prove the existence of GOD . . . without using an assumption.
Who created the stars? Who created the animals? Well someone created them! That's an assumption. I don't know and you don't know. Most scientist agree they have ton's of evidence to explain how these things came to be. But still that is not 100% agreed a pond by all scientist. So in the end the great questions we pose to prove the higher power are all assumption based. Except for how Jessica Simpson has a career, some higher power must be at work to keep her in the media. Best of luck in your decision.
under a glass moon ~
