Sounds like you are just now able to really, REALLY benefit from JWD.
I hope you decide to stay and work through your present concerns with us. Simply trying to forget your JW past will just let it fester - only to explode later one.
This is a great place to heal. Please stick around and let the healing begin.
And, yet, if you do leave - I wish you a peaceful heart and a contented soul. Pop back in now and then and let us know how you are doing.
-Aude.