I quite inadvertantly met some folks this past weekend that SO touched my heart so that I actually stood there and wept---at a cookout at my son's home. Having been quite ill recently, (as most of you know), he had been keeping "an eye" on me all day to make sure I was okay, and he saw me standing with a few people that his neighbor had invited....He saw my tears and could not imagine with everyone laughing and chatting---what had been said to me to make me stand there and weep.
There is no way to describe the love, the caring and the compassion that I was shown (by these strangers) that I was told later are members of the church my grandson attends. It's a very long story and has <i>many</i> twists and turns, (and people that are connected to others I didn't realize even knew each other), but that took my breath away---and it was all quite overwelming to say the least. This was only ONE of several wonderful and quite unexpected things that happened last weekend!
The enormity of it all sinking in, and actually feeling the hand of God working on me through these sweet people...will always stay with me, one of those golden and memorable moments that stick with you forever.
I have said this before this happened, and I have said it on this forum....that these feelings that occur since I left the Watchtower are all feelings and experiences that I never had or enjoyed AS a JW. All the intelligence, the "bible knowledge on Greek verbs" or the "understanding on deeper points" in the entire universe....come anywhere near the beauty and joy that one feels when God touches you and shows His care and tenderness. I no longer wonder why this is. I know why.
I had approached a woman about my age who I had heard used to be a JW....and we began to talk. I liked her immediately and she had asked if I knew this one or that one from the internet (former JWs) and I had heard of every one...and had emailed all but one over the last few years of my leaving the WTS. She invited me to go along with her and her daughter to the convention in PA in October...I forgot the name of it. She said I would be their guest---and she wouldn't take "no" for an answer!
She talked about meeting this one and that one---as I said---ALL people I have admired and written to but never even hoped to meet! THIS was when I began to cry over the mere THOUGHT of going to this event...and when my son was walking towards me to see who had upset me and why, LOL! My heart was just too full to accept anything more and the tears just spilled out!
There's a whole lot MORE to tell.....but I can't do it all right now. I couldn't wait to get back here and "share" my good stuff with everyone!
hugs,
Annie