by Madame Quixote 11 Replies latest social family

  • Madame Quixote
    Madame Quixote

    I feel so blue about my family today. I feel that nothing I say or do will ever make a difference for them or for others. They are so locked into, so imprisoned in their marriage to the WBTS. They may never hear or see any real truth about the borg, no matter what I say and do, I know this every day; but some days it just hits me so hard. When I think about my 3 little nephews growing up in all the same abusive bullshit,with crazy parents who appear to be normal, it just slaughters me.
    I guess I just need to cry for today; it seems that's all there is to do for now. I don't know what else to do.
    I know all the truth I can take about the bullshit JW organization, and I don't think my family will ever listen to me.
    Even sometimes, it seems that, my non-jw relatives don't really "get it" - that it's a cult, I mean. Every now and then, one of them suggests that I should "go back" and pretend.
    When people say such things, it is clear to me that they either don't know or don't understand their own parents and siblings belong to a real, live cult, where you can't just "pretend" to belong.
    I guess they're in denial about other things too. They grew up with an alcoholic father and a mother who "buried her head in the sand" about everything, (according to my mom). Then they both eventually joined the JWs, the ultimate homage to "burying one's head in the sand." God. When will it end? What generation lets that go for good, I wonder? I just feel so sad, but a little better since writing this out.
    Sorry to be so bummed out.

  • Double Edge
    Double Edge

    Sorry you're having a bad day. I've never been a dub, but I've been on this board for over four years, so I'm somewhat familiar with your plight. Don't lose heart. In the four years that I've been here, one thing I've noticed about my die-hard JW friend - they'rew starting to "crack" a lit bit. Before, when our conversations would steer into some areas where they would have to think (about JW doctrine), they would change the subject, or drop it all together...sometimes they wouldn't talk to me for a month. Lately, though, they are asking more questions and without fear. I've even pointed them to some places on the internet (although no "apostate" sites) for references -- methinks they are opening up their minds a little bit.

    I think the next year or two there's going to be a lot of people fading, and that in itself is going to open up others to question. Don't give up, stay positive and do things to move yourself forward.

    Take care.


  • luna2

    Sorry you are feeling bad today, Madam Q. It has to be very hard when you know your family won't listen to you.

  • Purza
    I guess I just need to cry for today; it seems that's all there is to do for now. I don't know what else to do.

    You have to let yourself feel blue once in awhile. I notice that with my family (who do not speak to me) some days I could care less and other days it really bothers me. I am having one of those blue days today myself. We can't change them -- all we can do is lead happy lives and prove them wrong. You know, actions speak louder than words.

    That being said, I am sorry you are having a down day today. I hope tomorrow is better. \


  • oldflame

    I am sorry to hear about your sadness but I can relate. I ahve a mother who is witness and several family members. I have just come to realize that no one can change everyone and there are some in this cult that will never come out. I think mostly because of fear more than anything else and I don't believe it's a fear of God as much as it is a fear of the society and that is the sad part of it all.

    I tend to rely on my friends and stay away from my family, they are not very friendly people my family. Always talking about each other, telling lies and evil misdeeds towards those who are not witness like them. I have found that I can be just as happy with my friends than my witness family and hat allows me a peace of mind. Because I just simply gave up on them.

  • gumby

    MQ...I was gonna say a bunch a stuff but I'm a tired bastard and goin ta here's somethin for ya till maybe in the morning.

    A hug, and this here, and this here on the cheek

    You'll feel better in the morning


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  • EAGLE-1

    Non jws in my family dont understand.In fact I do not think anyone outside could.I like what Double Edge said towards the end of his post about the fading.We plant seeds to see what grows and sometimes we have to wait as long to see what dies.Keep your flags up.

  • Worldly

    I was given some advice that I thought was profound: Allow yourself to feel the sadness and work your way through it. Too often, we suppress our feelings. Feel them, examine them, and then let them go. Wishing you happy days ahead...

  • Frannie Banannie
    Frannie Banannie

    MissQuixote, I'm really sorry you're feelin' so down, sweetie. And pardon my sayin' this,......but you need a toddy for da body, ma chere. Here ya go......annnnnd I'll just have one with ya, hon.



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