No one can be truly happy whilst living a lie can they Lola? It's all about honesty with ourselves. Of course it would be wonderful to think that what the JWs taught us was 'the truth' and i think alot of us would go back if it was....but...it aint my friend, it can't be for inumerable reasons. Y'know that's really sad but really great in one fell swoop. It may not be that profound...but to be truly happy for just a few years instead of half-hearted and miserable for a lifetime....i think we would all choose the former. My goal now is to live as long as i can in as full a way as possible, enriching myself and being enriched with others. Live it....Love it!!!!