It just takes time. You will know when it is time to stop. I faded for 4 years, recently last month, I got tired of lying and hiding from people in the "Truth" so I just told them what I thought. I couldn't bear to keep the lie up. I wish you the best in finding your way out. We are always here for you.
Aw. It really breaks my heart you are just existing in there. Remember God can see your heart. If you don't believe in him at all, my advice is to figure a way out to regain your life-do what YOU want. If you really believe in God-do the homework. There is nothing more important. Find out what the Bible really says and act accordingly. Take NO ONES word for it. Do the work.You won't be happy staying where you are either way. Just like all of us here, you will move when you feel like it. When you've had enough... I wish the best for you.