My Mom arrives tomorrow for a week long visit. I'm seriously debating having a conversation with her, not about doctrinal issues, but more of what bothers me in regards to the mind control aspect of it all. I have been reading Twisted Scriptures, and The Subtle Power of Spiritual Abuse. The difficult thing is that the whole witness thing has kind of been an off limits subject. Like the white elephant in the room... we all know it's there, but no one wants to address it. (my topic history contains a summary of the last discussion we had)
I am thought of as the "angry one" which is not really accurate. I have definitely had some feelings of anger (who doesn't, when confronted with all of the evidence of being made a fool of?) but I am not angry in the sense that they think of me as angry.
My mother has at different times, admitted that she and my father have had doubts before, but the conversation never went further than that statement. It was as if the lid to the box opened, but was slammed shut again just as quickly as it opened. I understand the psychology of mind control, but I could swear at times that I see the strain on my Mom's face for everything that she does.
So, my dilemma is that things are relatively peaceful, in terms of we just don't talk about it, which is at best, a pseudo-peace because the subject is always there looming. I don't want to fight with her or discuss doctrine in any way. I just want to have an intelligent conversation and see if she might open up a bit with me on why she stays even though she has admitted doubts. Would I be stupid to rock the boat and try to discuss with her how I feel?