Just got a call from my sis she passed at 03:15. She was 84 and suffered from dementia. It got to the point where she needed a feding tube that was installed last month. She lived a good life most of it in faithfull service to jehovah.
Although expected death is always hardest on the living. I feel sadness for the final lost (she hasn't recognized me in over a year due to dementia) But I really dread the coming days.
I have a comfortable relationship with my family, in the sense, when we do talk or get together we are cordial and have a good time. But, I find it better for my piece of mind to keep them at arms legnth. Now I have to deal with them and the yahoo's at the hall. Thru-out her sickness the brothers have been good about visiting her and helping my sister where they could. I know whats coming next.
Hopefully after all the formalities are done I can keep everything status quo. I really never saw the need for funnerals. I always shared the klingon mindset that after the light has gone from the body it is just an empty vessel to be dispossed of as you would any other refuse.
I'm just ranting and getting some things off my chest. I believe she is at rest and in a better state, like I said death is hardest on the living.
To the well-organized mind, death is but the next great adventureEVERYONE CAN'T BE IN THE FRONT ROW!
Life is a theater - Invite your audience carefully. Not everyone is healthy enough to have a front row seat in our lives. There are some people in your life that need to be loved from a distance. It's amazing what you can accomplish when you let go, or at least minimize, your time with draining, negative, incompatible, not-going-anywhere relationships/friendships!
Observe the relationships around you. Pay attention. Which ones lift and which ones lean? Which one encourages and which ones discourage? Which ones are on a path of growth uphill and which ones are going downhill? When you leave certain people, do you feel better or feel worse? Which ones always have drama or don't really understand, know or appreciate you?
The more you seek quality, respect, growth, peace of mind, love and truth around you, the easier it will become for you to decide who gets to sit in the FRONT ROW and who should be moved to the balcony of your life. You cannot change the people around you....but you can change the people you are around!
--Author Unknown