Its funny because when I was a active JW, I never even thought of it 'not being the only way'. You sacrifice living a normal life, fitting in in school, missing proms and parties and all the things normals kids do growing up because you 'can't do that'. But you do it because it is the right thing. Or as an adult, you try to raise your children to think this is the 'right course' and put them on this same dysfunctional path. But we were all doing what we were suppposed to do right?
Now that I am out and away, a conversation will roll into religion or beliefs and since I haven't figured out what I will believe, I start to answer the old 'familiar answer' (i.e. I think 'xxx happens when you die') but then i stop myself and rephrase by saying, well I USED to believe or JWS believe and explain it that way. But because none of it makes sense any more by the time I am done with a conversation the person I am talking with looks at me like all of that thinking is ludicrous, and I find myself thinking, yeah it does.
So here I am an adult and finding myself feeling crazy that I fell for all of this for so long and feel 'stupid'. Why does something seem so plain and clear as NOT the way, when for all my life it seemed so? How can I feel I am a fairly intelliegent person and yet lived my life with valueless sacrifices for nothing?
I feel like I am beating myself up over it in a way. Is this natural?