Goodbye Cruel World........................ As I look upon the water Walk upon the edge, and think How they would feel to loose their daughter They wouldn't care Is it a relief But do I dare As the waves crash against my face Do I regret it, to them No matter what I am a disrase Why ask me to be a fake I am tired of the mask You see me as a mistake I am sinking and hurting Cant you see The real self is me being Tourtured beyond control Yet you can not see That's place that you hold You are the one that is killing me The hurt I feel is from what you do But you refuse to see I have called out to you What have I done What can't I do To make the pain gone I am sinking and I cant see I can't feel anymore Do you miss me I have been lost And now been found Is it worth the cost Have I got your attention I needed so bad Your undieing affection Too much to ask I see And now I am down Inside the unforgiving sea Can you hear my voice Can you plainly see You had a vital choice To love me the way I truely am Or to loose me today Are your eyes now open Have you lost your hopes and dreams Now.....they are chosen I cant be who you want me to be I am not that person anymore I just want you to love me The true person I want to be Not the one you wanted But the one who you see I am not here anymore I left this world So the universe I can sore Good bye cruel world Jes...........................I only shared this cause I found this once again.......in my memory.............and I just felt like sharing..............if you dont like it.....that is ok.......I just felt like writing it down again......thank you.
poem I wrote when I was 13...................goodbye cruel world.........
by Jesika 29 Replies latest members private
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smack
I suppose you have a few answers to some of those questions.
I have a few answers as well.
My brother is probably never going to have all the answers, but they will always be on his mind.
It's been about 3 months since his son suicided, he was only 19
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Jesika
Smack..............
I wrote this when I was 13,,,,,,,,,,,,I am 27 now.
I didnt mean to press any buttons.
I just wanted to share..............I lost this poem in my memory for a LONG time...............so I wrote it again.
I am glad I didnt go through with what I wanted to at that age......I wouldnt be the mother I am now if I had.
Please understand..............I didnt mean to hurt anyone by writing this..............I just wanted to share.
Hope this didnt hurt you.............If so.............I didnt mean to!
Love,
Jes
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smack
No Jes, I'm not hurt :)
I meant you are still here and happy, so you now have some answers.
I was moved by what you wrote, and I would have just skimmed through it months ago.
Now I just want to help any kid that feels like that. The emotions we feel at that age are
so powerful, we dopey grown ups need to remember how REAL the hurt was back then
an recognise the signs. Then do something to help
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frenchbabyface
so true ... and so sad
How can they become so insensitive, I still wondering ...
It's seems that when god taking place in somebodys heart there's no love left for anybody !) -
iiz2cool
Thank You for sharing, Jesika!
Your poem was very moving, and brought back a flood of memories. I'm glad you didn't go through with it either.
People of any age need unconditional love, and that love has to be shown to them. We can't just take for granted that people know we care for them - it has to be demonstrated.
If you ever feel the need to talk or vent, I'm here.
Walter
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Big Tex
Good poem Jes, but very sad. I remember you at that age. It must have been hard putting on the board.
Thanks for sharing.
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berylblue
Thank you for that , Jesika. It was so so sad. I'm so glad you're still here.
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cruzanheart
(((((Jesika))))) May you never feel like that again.
Nina
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Jesika
Thanx for all the support...............................I honestly just wanted to share.
I am glad you all liked it, you know how things are...................not knowing how ppl are going to react..................glad the reactions were good.
Thanx again,
love,
Jes