These past few nights, my dreams have been rather dark. I had one where I was locked in my car in the middle of a tornado and another where there was a bunch of weird weather happening and I figured out that it was due to a earthquake coming. The most disturbing so far was one that I had last night...
I don't remember the exact details, but basically I was with my mother (who is a dub) and I think we were arguing about my life and the choices that I made. Then she goes home, and my sister calls me and tells me that she (mother) died in her sleep last night. She said that according to the doctor, she was only 56 (not sure of meaning), she was having heart trouble, and that she went peacefully. I conversed with my sister several times in the dream, but only over the phone. I remember being very sad, and coming close to crying, but I never actually cried. I told my sister that I had just spoken to her and that she had seemed fine. From that point on it seems that I went out and started visiting all the people I know that are/were close to me. I remember visiting one friend from an old congregation. (In real life I knew he was gay, but he never came out till he left the borg. I haven't seen him in years) I went to his house and he was walking around in a dress (?) and he just kept holding me. I remember I kept wanting to go see my aunt (mother's sister) and my cousin to tell them, but I kept getting sidetracked.
That's really all I remember. I keep trying to think happy positive thoughts when I go to bed, but I keep having these dark forboding dreams.
Any interpretations/insight are more than welcome.
~luv, jojo