Do Your Emotions Come Back When You Leave a Cult?
I believe they do perhaps as gradually as they left.
I remember when I was 18 yrs old and first started becoming a JW that was 30 yrs ago and the one thing I remember is that I loved my worldly relatives and wanted so much for them to get saved and the emotional torture I went though thinking they were all going to die soon at Armageddon. It was really hard to cope with the thought of them all being destroyed.
I work really hard not to think about it, and over time I started to view all my nonJW relatives as worthy of destruction at Gods hands in order to have my thinking line up with Gods. Thats how I coped and slowly over time lost a great deal of natural affection for friends and family. I thought that was Jehovahs will.
How sick can that be!!!!
Ive been out now about a little over a year and one of the first things that happened to me, is Im able to cry. For years I have not been able to do it. Even when my fleshly sister died about 13 yrs ago I couldnt cry and I wanted to so desperately but nothing, I felt dead inside.
Finally after leaving this God-awful cult my crying came back and I been able to make up for some lost crying time. I hate to ever cry in public you look so pathetic, but when Im alone and think about the many people I know who have died, or some other tragedy has happened to them, it makes me cry, and I feel more human again.
I think this is a good sign that one is coming back to reality, and returning to his original self before the cult .