Hello forum,
I'm new here and not sure where to post. So, I'm 21 years old and currently a baptized witness, however, I'm slowly making my mind up to leave and here's why.
First, there are certain things that make no sense to me in the organization.
1: Pioneering. While I appreciate people wanting to do a lot in God's service, I feel like they do it only for the title. The new 30 hour rule for auxillary pioneers just amplifies this. Why can't you do your hours without a title?
2: Hours. While witnesses will argue that we count hours to get a global number of how much time we spend as a whole in the ministry, I feel this is wrong. First off, if we love the ministry, do we really have to count up our hours? It seems that the main topic of discussion, especially when you can auxillary pioneer is "did you get your hours in?".
3: HYPOCRITES. This is what's killing me. Every time I walk into that hall, all I see are hypocrites. People counselling others about things that they do themselves. People gossiping about each other. People hating other people for their individuality. People hating gays. I understand what the Bible says about gays, but you shouldn't hate them.
4: Elders: I suffer from severe depression. I made this known the the elders a while ago. They said they would help me if I needed it. For the past 2 weeks I've been suffering from severe depression and have not been to meetings. I emailed to brothers explaining my situation and absence. Neither of them responded to me via email. They've known about my condition for a few years now, and I have yet to receive an shepherding call or encouraging visit.
5: 3 years ago I moved country. All my so called friends from my old hall completely forgot about me. Now, I considered them my best friends, and they have contacted me all but once in the past 3 years.
6: I have no joy when going to the meetings. Absolutely none. I go there, do my responsibilities then leave.
Have any of you had this happen to you? I haven't gone to meetings in over 2 weeks and I think I'm ready to mail a letter of resignation from the organization I don't even want to see a response, I just want to be done with it. I already know that my friends will all leave me and never speak to me again, but frankly, I don't care.
Can you guys help me?.