Terry, I'm very sorry to hear that. I can't say that my intellectuality had ever been disrupted y anyone else than myself. Though
I was pressured to persue an easier carrer than I wanted. I was pressured by the organization, my woman and circumstances to
instead of spend eight extra years in Shcool pursueing my Phd to settle for Public School teacher. I almost finished that career then
towards the end I said "F*** it"! I am now in a MA program and will apply to a Phd program soon. I am pretty sure I'll get in. But, to
go back I was always the one to hinder myself, though the culture of witnesses never made it easy for me; the constant nagging of
not pursuing riches (though I never once considered riches) was almost unbearable. I experiecenced everything you mentioned the, I
excelled in talks, recieved praise for espousing garbage and more often than not worked my ass off for refusing to ever use any outlines
and justify, and twist words and ideas so as not feel guilty of speaking lies and not to arouse too much suspicion.
It doesn't matter, however, Thanks to God I am out and I will use my "Talents" to be productive.