I want to fade from the org but I am not really sure how many meetings I should miss to begin with. Is it best to decrease them gradually or go once a month?
I have a son and baby grand daughter that are JW's and belong to a different congregation. They are the only reason that I don't disassociate and try to make a clean break.
I found out through research the truth about the borg and do find it very distressing carrying on living a lie, but would be heart broken to lose my family. It is such a cruel and wicked thing to threaten us with losing our loved ones in this way. In my case I experienced the death of both my parents by the time I was 15 years old and did not have any other family to turn to.When I learnt the "Truth" I thought that it was so wonderful and felt that I had found the family that I had never had. As time went by I began to see that all was not as I thought it was and I saw other JW's being treated in very unloving ways and I began to see that everything (love, friendship, compassion), were all conditional on loyalty and obedience to the WT Organisation.
Since discovering through research, that the WT are false prophets and a cult that use very sophisticated high control techniques, I have gone through terrible emotional experiences (still am), but know that I must get out! I want to get my son out too, more than anything but know that it will be such a hard thing to do as at this time he is a very active JW.
It is such a relief to have found you all and to know that I am not alone so thank you all for being here.