RollerDave
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I walked off the job today....
by Terry incan't explain this one.. right in the middle of my shift i became disassociative.. my brain locked and i threw my hands up and kept repeating, "i can't do this!
i can't take this!
right out the front door of the bookstore.. i wasn't angry.
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The C word
by ness inhow do your minds work people??.
the word 'cult'.
who is comfortable saying they were raised in a 'cult' or were brainwashed temporarily by a 'cult'?.
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just sent final email to my 'best friend'
by 4digitcode ini'm so drained emotionally from it but i did it.
i learned a few days ago through her ex worldly boyfriend that she had told him she tries to email me but i don't answer, she called me and i hung up (all things she has done tome in the past 9 months that i have been trying to get in touch with her).
she told him i had gone crazy and moved to italy and no one knew where i was and i was not talking to my jw mom anymore ( i moved to italy for almost 3 years to work, study and learn italian and my mom is not a jw!!!!!!
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Interesting announcement made at the Assembly
by mind my own inthis goes back a year ago, my mom was trying to get me to go to the district convension b/c there was a major announcement being made.
of course i didn't go (why go back after all these years?).
anyway, she called me when it was over and i asked her what the announcement was.
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Say Hi to MrsRoller!
by mrsroller inmy name is becky aka mrsroller.
i call myself that because the notorious rollerdave is my hubby.
i met dave when he was in his early thirties and it had only been a few years since he had left the jw's.
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Departing for just a little while
by LearningToFly inyou all have been such a great source of validation to me for the reasons i left the cult.
yes.. i do call it a cult now.. i didnt before coming here.
much healing has taken place in my personal life with this recognition.
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not scared anymore
by 4digitcode ini posted my pic.
(well part of it at least (am a bit shy still...) because i am not scared to be found out anymore.
mind you i've been df'ed for nearly a year now but still had hope 'friends' would remember we were like family and realize they couldn't possibly live the rest of their lives without talking to me again....ha!
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Why use the word apostate?
by greendawn inwhy should we define ourselves by what the fds defines us?
our enemies who seek emotional control over us even after we left their destructive cult have invested a lot of effort to demonize us with the word apostate and when we use the term ourselves we do their work for them.
most so called apostates simply thought about things deeply and came up with many questions that the jws instead of answering in a logical manner labelled these inquiring minds as demon inspired apostates doubting the god appointed fds and expelled them from their org.
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Being true to yourself
by blueviceroy inyou know ,i was studying with someone who was a jw and came to this forum thinking it was a jw thing and found something i didnt count on and that was people that had bee there in it and saw it for what it was.i read so mant posts and realized that i could never ever live like that pushing things on people instead of really living in a way that mattered to all people that are lurking and still jw i hope that maybe you will think about being honest instead of being trusting i cant help but feel that stepping back is something too few people do in any aspect of life and the feeling i have about being fed a line of crap must be pretty minor compared to the lifers out there who woke up i realized there was no way i could ever be a jw the whole time i was studying i was struggling with my own common sense that kept whispering to me that what i was hearing could really be coming from a grown man of approx.
50 years of age being true to yourself will keep you happy if you are living a lie your life will be meaningless and desperate the erosion of all that is good in you is inevitable secrets kill slowly and its no kind of life complete honesty takes courage and strength but it is the only way to live i dont wont to sound preachy and i apolgize if i do > but im really relieved that i only had a close call< i feel as if jws prey on peoples good intentions and desire to live a good life as anti jw as this must sound let your consience be your guide.
( is that how you spell consience?
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My first week here ...thoughts
by emy the infidel ini have been hear for about a week now, and have not been is such a strange mental place since i was a witness.
it has been good, the programming still kicks in however, but i'm getting less and less afraid to reason with it.
i got my coc book yesterday.... i sat looking at it and thinking of all the years i avoided it, mischaracterized and marginalized it, w/out having any specific knowledge of what was actually in it.