As can be learned from reading my posts, I have been really questioning belief systems lately. Yesterday, while browsing at Barnes & Noble, I noticed several religious books, each espousing its cure for human weakness. I remembered how it was of utmost importance as a JW that others see the love we had, since we alone had the holy spirit, and Christ's followers would be easily recognized by this love. I remembered that we were to avoid conduct that would bring reproach on Jehovah and/or his org. The reality, as I look back now, is that such love was absolutely lacking. We learned to "act" well for the sake of a good witness. Perhaps this is why there is rampant abuse and anger displayed in JW homes, once the doors are closed.
I begin learning the art of meditation today. I am armed with books on the subject, as well as an eager spirit. If this is a viable avenue, the peace from practitioners should be evident in their dealings with ohers, as well as in their personal lives. This is what I want for me. We'll see. HbH
P.S. Happy first anniversary to Andrew and me! (No gifts, please...a line which I NEVER understood...are they for real? No gifts? That's crazy!)