No real need for anyone to respond; I just have to put this out there. It's kind of a step in my recovery.
I have to say I'm sorry to anyone I've hurt in my life because of my upbringing. I'm sorry, Robert, Steven, Bertie, Betty, Judy, and any other family members I have had to shun over the years, or simply kept at arm's length to avoid treating like family.
I'm sorry Ivan, Angie, Joe, Jessica, Hannah and everyone else who's ever repeatedly extended friendship to me only to have me coldly decline because you were a bad influence.
I'm sorry Kendra and any others I treated with disrespect for my former beliefs.
I'm sorry Christina, Joanna, Daniel, and any others I may have pushed toward the organization.
I'm sorry Ilsa, Jim, Stephen (Jeannie?) and all the rest who faded before me. I wish I would've noticed. I wish I would've known.
And a final apology to all my friends and aquaintences who are still in: I'm sorry I can't come back, and I'm sorry I can't get you out. I can only hope that some of you find your way out into true freedom at some point. I'll be here waiting and watching for you.