Does your heart still race when suddenly coming accross a JW?

Fernando

It did for me even though I eventually walked out on my terms and fully convinced of the apostasy of the Watchtower Pharisees and Sanhedrin (Governing Body).

Initially it was very confusing and bewildering since I was a 3rd generation born-in and the Watchtower was the only "reality" I'd known for more than 40 years.

A Psychologist diagnosed PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) and recommended attending a cult conference and workshop for victims of Psychological manipulation. I learnt about "triggers" that cause turmoil and upset whilst one is suffering from PTSD.

For nearly 2 years I could not answer a phone without a minor panic attack. I could only respond to voicemails. I wanted no communication from Watchtower Pharisees. Emails were much easier since I enjoy writing and felt in control of the situation. It was very liberating to respond to initial elder emails with faith and spirituality 101 questions that not a single elder on the whole body could or dared to answer.

Well the Seminar, Workshop, Psychotherapy, CBT, EMDRAA and an intense spiritual journey outside of religion have all helped me to a much more peaceful, stable and secure place. No more heart racing no matter who I bump into or who phones. It's a good place to be in, however rebuilding ones life from scratch takes loads of time, energy and resources...

I have met a number of exJWs also on a faith journey outside of religion and noted how we are all learning similar things apart from any organisation or group.

Oddly enough we have made friends with a lovely spiritually minded JW family who we imagine could respond favourably to the gospel in time. Others of course choose to avoid us like the plague whilst the Pharisees and Sanhedrin have kept them ignorant of the real reasons for our departure, namely the Watchtower's patently false gospel which excises the "good news" according to Paul, Moses, Isaiah, the Psalms and more.

Is it getting better for you when coming across JWs?

FlyingHighNow

I cringe and feel queasy.

wha happened?

I look at them with a mix of pitty and disdain. As much as I feel sorry for their lot in life. Uneducated and living in a lower standard of living for their religion, but at the same time, their smug attitude and the fact that anyone of of them would gladly see apostates destroyed forces me towards disdain

ziddina

Yeah, my heart still races...

And I've been out for 25 years... [or so... ]

But mostly that's due to excitement over the opportunity to do some "anti-witnessing"!!!

wha happened?

I don't even like engaging them. It's pathetic. Anything past their mag offer is just fluff. A minute into a conversation and most just wish me a nice day and turn. But you know what. I got like that as well and I didn't care to defend anything.

ziddina

I still have this experience in mind...

http://www.jehovahs-witness.net/jw/friends/212300/1/Guys-Guys-Two-Jehovahs-Witnesses-were-just-at-my-door

I still think about that teen-aged girl, who stood there and listened with such rapt attention, to what I had to say about the recent origins of the bible and the vastly older belief systems...

It was because of people LIKE MYSELF, speaking out at the doors when I came to call as a "good little girl, good little Jehovah's Witness", that helped rattle my brain loose from the mind control that the Jehovah's Witnesses were trying to subject me to...

I still mentally thank the man who said, "Those people are using you..."

I still mentally thank the woman I worked with, who told me about how her parents had debated whether to send her to school or not, when she was 5 years old, because of Rutherford's false prophecies... And she was in her forties when she told me that story!!

You never know....

Sometimes you get through - or at least add another doubt onto the growing mountain of doubts and questions that eventually get someone out...

out4good3

Indeed Ziddina

There are several people I met at the door whilst I was a JW that I wish I could find, go back, and thank as well. Specifically, one man who asked us in, sat us down, and proceeded to calmly and patiently ask us questions about the origins of our faith. Those barely perceptical then nuggets of information remained with me for a long time. They sat on rocks on my mind.

After we left his house, determined to get out overseer to come over and talk to this man, an overseer who refused after we told him of the type of questions the man was asking, those nugget seedlings were washed on the fertile ground and carefully watered by compounded WT gaffs.

This elders refusal to even talk to this man, coupled with his disapproving look when me and my wife drove off in our two door sports car, set the wheels in motion for me to eventually see my way out of there.

designs

'When are you returning to Jehovah' or 'when are you coming back to the meetings we miss you' those usually get the heart rate up. I counter with 'when are you going to invite me over to your house for dinner'

blondie

Weirdly enough, I live in a fairly large city and work around several jws but don't see them. Maybe they are avoiding me, but I don't think so....they know we are df'd and we don't discuss anything negative with jws. designs, good response about inviting you over for dinner....when I was active we invited several over for dinner frequently; in ten years time, never saw the inside of their house and never dinner. Of course they would say, "we have to have you over some time."

undercover

No. Not anymore. When I was first taking my leave of them, if I saw one or had elders call, it caused some anxiety. Now I don't feel anything.

I've gotten to the point where they are, for the most part, insignificant in my life. Aside from my JW family, I rarely see them and don't care to anymore. When I do see them, it's sort of like running into an old workmate who moved on or a neighbor who moved. There's nothing that connects us anymore. Just old acquaintances that might chit chat and then move on with life.

Does your heart still race when suddenly coming accross a JW?

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