This past Mon. I had to have a hysterectomy and some other repairs. I told the Doc that since I'm going under anyway, if you see something that needs fixing, do it....and he went to town! I must add how freeing it was not to bring up the blood issue. I gave permission for a transfusion if needed. (turned out I didn't) Had a rough couple of days after bc I was allergic to the pain drip.
Anyway, I'm home now, the operation went well, I'm feeling MUCH better, and soon I'll be better than before. Yet today I'm feeling very LOW and LONELY. I'm no longer a JW and there is 0 contact with former friends and family except MIL (in) and daughter (out). Daughter lives far away, been out for 5 years, doesn't "get me". She was never as true a believer, sacrificed nothing, had a nice childhood, and was only baptized a couple of years before she decided to live a "worldly life". She had virtually no "skin in the game". On the other hand, I had an abusive upbringing, 50+ years "publishing and pioneering", and abandoned all hopes, dreams and ideas of my own. I didn't leave because I wanted to break any "rules", I was truely stumbled. (a separate thread)
Out only 2 months, there has been no time to replace friends and family. We also have been SEVERELY affected by the ecconomic downturn. Hubby understandably tense and preoccupied trying to start a new business and career even as we speak.
Sooooo, it's Christmas tomorrow and the neighbors have offered to send a plate of turkey home with hubby if he will walk over and get it. He accepted. Why am I so blue? Does anyone relate? Sorry, I guess I needed to vent.