So my friends have all DFed me... ignoring me, refusing to speak.. but i've never had a judicial committee, in fact, the elders were nice and encouraging to me, i'm not even bad association.
Anyway, long story, but now my (former) best friend and i started emailing, i decided to be the stronger person and say "we needed closure. i want to respect our friendship and meet for a goodbye meeting".
I'ts getting down and dirty... she wants to reject me... but get my kids to my moms house (whos in the truth) so that her daughter and my kids can meet there to play!!!!
What do you think of this ??? this INFURIATES ME! How can I be such skum you cant look me in the eyes... but yet you manipulate the situation so you can see my kids??? how can you see them and not me?/???? she said "like a divorce" ???!??!?!?!?!?!! She insists, this is all beause of MY decision she tells me "i never left you, you left Jehovah" so if you ignore me, then leave my kids the hell alone!!!!
I think.. but i dont know.. because is it bad of me not to put my kids first? this is the girl who is my kids BEST friend every DAY they used to play, until 3 months ago when I told my girlfriend accidentally that i dont believe the witnesses anymore... and then it was over. But, would it be punishing my kids by not letting them see each other? I dont know, i'ts been 3 months, they're still very hurt and miss her alot, but if they see her again now... it will take MORE time to get over the healing....
What do you think? i'm soooo mad and pissed and sad and angry and ..... i need a drink... let me know....