As part of my churchly visits while working on my uncertainty, I took communion at a baptist church. I was baptized twenty-three years ago so it was all on the up and up, at least in protestant Christendom. It had been years, and it was a very moving experience. It brought back the sadness I felt at my first Memorial when no one dared take the gift from Jesus.
So, I thought about things, looked through all the books I had (Teach, Knowledge, Reasoning, NWT notes), at the WTBS website and couldn't find the biblical connection to why communion is not for all. Meanwhile, I knew that i was not going to get Dub-dunked and thought it only fair to tell my study-leader.
I told her about my wild escapade, and my reason for doing it. I had already laid the groundwork at the previous week's study, saying I needed to ask more about the Memorial the next time we met. She had Mrs. CO with her so I didn't want to make an issue of it that day. The next week I asked her for the bible citation, leaving her the loophole of getting back to me with it. We looked at the sources we had, and didn't find anything. I gave a heartfelt witness (come to think of it, I never actually witnessed before) about the closeness to Jah through his Son and the wafer and wine, I hope I gave her something to consider. I said I didn't see myself being a candidate for baptism so she invited me to keep attending the KH but we stopped the study. I will probably continue the Rev book for awhile, out of curiosity and a personal sense of comittment to finishing what I started. Or I'll gag once too often and give it up, we'll see.
Thanks for your support in this decision, I hope I can continue to hang out here. You folks are pretty special and I already speak the "language."