For the first 40+ years of my life I was repeatedly raped and molested.
Mostly by the local elders and ministerial servants at the KH. The rapings and molestations would also occur:
While engaged in the preaching work.
When we would visit other congregations.
At Circuit Assemblies.
At District Assemblies
At various Bethel facilities.
And by reading the Watchtower publications.
They did not sexually molest and/or rape me.
They mentally molested and raped my mind.
They lied to me.
Held me as a prisoner and a hostage, telling me, "If I leave, Jehovah will kill me."
They would destroy my family.
At the age of 27, I was DF. Yes, my captors did give me a physical release. However the mental rapings would continue. As I:
Did not want to die at armageddon.
Did not want my parents to die without being able to talk to them.
Eventually, my rapists would allow grant me reentry and re-instate me.
A little over a year would pass and I would be disfellowshipped again. However this time a close friend was there to come to my aid. He helped me get over many of the mental wounds caused by this evil organization. However many of these scares caused by my captors will never go away, they will haunt me the rest of my life.
Yes! I am mentally diseased. However, my mental disease was caused by the mental rapists I grew up with.