Opaque!...exjw reflection on mental battle of leaving WT

by Brummie 14 Replies latest jw experiences

  • Brummie
    Brummie

    Opaque!

    Sometimes I see a shaded screen

    And you appear behind

    Playing in the darkness

    Toying with my mind.

    Reminding me, the memoirs, of the fears I fought at night.

    Opaque! You knew how to block the passages of light.





    And landed on my knees

    You took those whom I loved the most

    And made them sting like bees.

    A statistic just to play with

    You counted money while I counted time

    Opaque! I took the bait and your hook

    Tore out my mind.





    The fight for sanity

    Your web of lies locked around my mind secured with doomsday keys.

    Caught in your tower of darkness, snared by your claims of liberty

    Opaque! I was blinded by your carnal society.





    So you tried to snatch my breath

    Stood before 3 mortals and they sentenced me to death.

    Questioned in your dungeons

    Finding light considered crime!

    Opaque! You'll reap your wages but no longer by my time.





    I am no longer just your echo, or a wheel in your machine.

    No longer can you bind me, to your locks I've found the key

    Opaque! The truth has set me free from your transient destiny


    (wierd huh)

  • JamesThomas
    JamesThomas

    Very vivid. Very nice.

  • Undecided
    Undecided

    So well expressed and so true.

    Ken P.

  • yesidid
    yesidid

    That is just brilliant Brummie,

    Are they your words?

    The pictures are so clear.

    Thank you.

  • Brummie
    Brummie

    Gee THANKS , to be frank I find that reflection quite depressing! LOL. I wrote it while still trying to cope and holding my head from leaving the Watchtower. Highly symbolic words and could only be understood by a former JW. I'm a lot less depressing (thats arguable I guess) when i write these days, it just captured the state of mind I was in at the time of leaving.

    Brummie

  • RAYZORBLADE
    RAYZORBLADE

    Brummie, an excellent piece of poetry.

    Opaque: what a great description of where we once were in our blind state.

    Thanks for sharing.

  • Brummie
    Brummie

    Thanks Razor, everytime I hear that word I think of the watchtower! yuk

  • moreisbetter
    moreisbetter

    Thank you very much for sharing this. Very indicative of my current feelings.

    I hope you and your family are very well, cute kitty face.

    Theresa

  • Brummie
    Brummie

    Thanks Theresa (hey I now know your name), hope all is well with you too. Glad you went to the apostafest and met others, must have been very encouraging for you.

    Brummie

  • Big Tex
    Big Tex

    Best line:

    Caught in your tower of darkness, snared by your claims of liberty

    Stirred up images of a lonely castle spire silhoutted in the night.

    Cool poem Brumm. Wish I could write poetry, but it's just too hard.

    Thanks for sharing.

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