Raised JW, 110% committed (one of those pain-in-the butt goody-two-shoes types). Got hit one time too many and began asking questions. Found myself increasingly alone. Abandoned by the Org, despised by most of the rest of humanity (as I thought)... I embarked upon a solo search. Df'd 1979. Have made my own mistakes, and will continue to do so, but have never turned back. Found a God of love when I stopped looking for God, just happened I was dying from cancer at the time. Married, 2 wonderful level-headed sons who have had nothing to do with JWs and are a credit to their screwball ol' man. Am delighted to say that I have moved on somewhat from days of vitriol,(both in and out the Org.) Forgiven but not forgotten. May the Org. rest in peace, as I will someday (at least my conscience will be clear).