Hi MoeJoJoJo, thanks for your question.
I wasn't raised a jw, but it found me when I was 21. Before then, I was a Methodist. When I was little, I played outside a lot. It was evident to me that everything in nature had been created. The beauty around me was like a written book from God.
I walked away from jws over four years ago. At first, I still believed it to be the truth and felt very guilty. But, I no longer had the desire to go to meetings, go out in service or be a jw in any way. I turned to the internet's search engine one day and typed in Jehovah. I tried reading the wtbts official website and it did nothing for me. I then turned to Beyond Jehovah's Witnesses and have posted there for a little over a year now. I learned a lot there and during this growing process, I came to realize that man-made religion isn't where God is. God has been with me since I was a little kid and I don't need imperfect religions to tell me about him.
When I think about God, there are two distinct things that I am sure of. That he has a great love for all his creation and that he wants us to be happy. I don't have any answers like religions do, but I know in my gut that he is going to take care of things eventually.
I guess this isn't very profound, but in a nutshell, it is how I believe.