I was raised in the truth and was disfellowshiped in 1985 for cheating on my wife. I have regretted that mistake ever since it happened and will the rest of my life! The loss was almost unbearable ,I concidered suicide but decided after a while that I couldn"t even drink myself to death. The brothers at the hall where I live won"t even talk to me about getting reinstated and my 4 kids won"t have anything to do with me.but I still love my kids, I STILL LOVE JEHOVAH , and don"t really have any animosity toward the society. I GUESS YOU COULD SAY MY ATTITUDE IS THAT I ONCE BELONGED TO AN ARMY THAT BELIEVES IN KILLING THEIR WOUNDED, INSTEAD OF HELPING THEM TO GET BACK GOOD FIGHTING HEALTH, DOCTORING THE WOUNDS AND REALIZING THAT ANYBODY CAN FALL IN BATTLE ,AND IT SHOULD BE THE OTHER SOLDIERS RESPOSIBILITY TO GET THE WOUNDED OUT OF THE LINE OF FIRE AND TO THE MEDICS. AND I HOPE SOMEBODY UNDERSTANDS,.IF I HAVE ONE REGRETT IT IS THAT MY CHILDREN HAVE NEVER BEEN TOLD THEY HAVE A CHOICE IF THEY WANT ONE. THAT IS SOMETHING THEY WILL NEVER HEAR FROM THE WBTS AND THE SO-CALLED FDS. "IF ANYBODY READS MY PROFILE I"D LIKE TO HAVE SOME PERSONAL E-MAIL. LOVE TO EACH AND EVERYONE. I PRAY THAT YOUR FAITH AND LOVE FOR "JEHOVAH" NEVER FALTERS,EVEN THOUGH MEN ALWAYS WILL!!! PERSONALLY I"M THANKFUL TO JEHOVAH FOR THIS FORUM TO SHARE an ever developing strength and hope in mans future according to God's plans and not the misunderstandings taught by man. GOD LOV"YA ALL , ALLEN