I never heard the Smurf thing either, Hortensia. But I do remember the "demon-possessed" Sprite/Star Brite doll stories in the 80's. Obviously I couldn't have one. I also remember the warnings about yard sale/thrift store items possibly being "demonic". So pretty much...you gotta be poor but you can't get your stuff used for fear of bringing demons into the home.
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My First Post!!!
by IreallydidwalkoutofaKH inafter a year of reading all of your experiences and expressions i decided it was time for me to start sharing some of mine.
hopefully they can benefit others, like many of yours have benefited me!
being raised in the wtbts, the jehovahs witness docrine and culture really was the prism from which all of my experiences and understanding of life originated.
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Is this normal???
by amama2six ini joined a few days ago thinking "hey, maybe i will find people that i have something in common with!
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i am reading experiences and doctrine and suddenly getting very angry and confused.
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LOL Hortensia...I won't do anything rash! :D
ldrnomo...I'm very glad I got out when I was still young and it breaks my heart to read stories of people who spent nearly their whole lives enslaved before getting out...losing children and grandchildren to the organization they themselves brought them into. :( *Hugs* -
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My First Post!!!
by IreallydidwalkoutofaKH inafter a year of reading all of your experiences and expressions i decided it was time for me to start sharing some of mine.
hopefully they can benefit others, like many of yours have benefited me!
being raised in the wtbts, the jehovahs witness docrine and culture really was the prism from which all of my experiences and understanding of life originated.
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Welcome to the forum (or at least posting on it, since you've been reading awhile). :D I have to say I love your screen name...it's certainly a classic. LOL
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Is this normal???
by amama2six ini joined a few days ago thinking "hey, maybe i will find people that i have something in common with!
" i did not come here expecting what has happened to me.
i am reading experiences and doctrine and suddenly getting very angry and confused.
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I don't understand "apostasy" being the only unforgivable sin. The funny thing is...they say in the organization that apostates completely turn their back on Jehovah (God) and try to bring others away from him. Yet many of the so-called "apostates" I see on here are still believers in God, they just don't agree with the way Jehovah's Witnesses are being controlled, manipulated, and having the Bible twisted for them in the WT publications. They would have their members believe we're all just a bunch of Satanists out to drag them into eternal death. :rolleyes:
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3 REASONS TO BE A JW
by thebigdebate ini have a theory on why people become jw's.
there are 3 different reasons:.
1: you were born into a family of jw's.
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Sounds right to me, too.
Me-Parents joined when I was four.
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Is this normal???
by amama2six ini joined a few days ago thinking "hey, maybe i will find people that i have something in common with!
" i did not come here expecting what has happened to me.
i am reading experiences and doctrine and suddenly getting very angry and confused.
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Thank you so much, everyone! I'm feeling better today, though something tells me it's going to be a roller coaster ride for a little while. It's good to know I have somewhere to rant when I need to, as well as to keep gaining information on the "real truth".
Something I thought of today...another reason after being DFed that I did not seek out any information or others like me for so long is because in the back of my mind I was still afraid of being an actual "apostate". For some reason I thought...if I don't read apostate information, talk to apostates who openly attack the religion, or openly attack the religion myself then I am not an apostate. I'm just someone who sinned and left. I was STILL afraid in the back of my mind and figured if I was wrong to leave I didn't want to go "completely" bad and sin against the holy spirit.
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DRAMA SUMMARY: 2005 District Convention - Pursue Goals That Honor God
by ithinkisee ini forgot how ridiculously fictional and manipulative this drama was until i just typed up these notes:.
scene:.
jonathan enters, and everything is better.
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My father was "Lot" in the drama "Jehovah's judgements against a law defying people" (Noah / Lot : from "Divine Justice" District Convention, 1988) held at the New Haven Coliseum in Connecticut. I remember thinking it was so exciting and cool (was just shy of 10 years old)...it was one of the few "good" experiences I had growing up. Reading what these dramas actually SAY, though, certainly puts things into perspective!
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Is this normal???
by amama2six ini joined a few days ago thinking "hey, maybe i will find people that i have something in common with!
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i am reading experiences and doctrine and suddenly getting very angry and confused.
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Twelve years of denial...awesome. LOL
I think I'm already between anger and bargaining...wanting to unleash my fury on some unsuspecting Elders while at the same time wanting to "bargain" an apology for the way things were handled in my situation. Wishing they could at least admit what happened wasn't right, even if they can't fully admit their beliefs are effed up. Of course I know this won't happen.
I've definitely suppressed/buried a LOT. I knew that I had because when I try to think back on my childhood I remember very little...just major good things and major bad things. The rest is a blur at best, but usually non-existent. Coming on here I am being flooded with things I had long ago "forgotten". Watching YouTube videos about JWs or ex-JWs has sparked a lot, too. Even something as simple as video of JWs singing kingdom melodies...12 years later and guess what? I still know almost all the songs word-for-word! Terms has been a rough one, too, I read the thread about JW terms and immediately felt anger. Just the terms...not any particular memories associated with them...invoked anger. What's up with that?
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Is this normal???
by amama2six ini joined a few days ago thinking "hey, maybe i will find people that i have something in common with!
" i did not come here expecting what has happened to me.
i am reading experiences and doctrine and suddenly getting very angry and confused.
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Thank you! I thought I was going crazy. :embarrassed: A few minutes ago I was envisioning myself going to the KH down the road from me (literally a minute from my house) and giving some Elders a piece of my mind. I won't, of course, because I know it would get me nowhere. It was a fun thought, though. :P
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Is this normal???
by amama2six ini joined a few days ago thinking "hey, maybe i will find people that i have something in common with!
" i did not come here expecting what has happened to me.
i am reading experiences and doctrine and suddenly getting very angry and confused.
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I joined a few days ago thinking "Hey, maybe I will find people that I have something in common with!" I did not come here expecting what has HAPPENED to me. I am reading experiences and doctrine and suddenly getting very angry and confused. Things I didn't even realize still affected me are coming to the forefront...memories I had long ago buried are surfacing and I am entirely unprepared. I honestly thought after all these years I had finally moved on and now I am being slapped in the face with how much I have NOT moved on. Please tell me this gets better!