Contacted at door in 1954 - 11 years old. Loved the pictures of lions and tigers and wanted to be there in Paradise. Baptised at 13 - disfellowshipped at 14 for running away from home following abuse there. (bringing disrepute on Jehovah's organisation). Pioneered after reinstatement - married, two kids reared in "the truth". Increasingly worried when I passed 40 - believed it to be the truth but could see the hypocrasy, backbiting, gossip and immorality. Attended assembly in 1999 - walked out after hearing pioneers boasting on platform - decided Jehovah was going to kill me at Armageddon because I wasn't "good enough". Took book from local library written by ex-JW =- enough to get me started on research. Came out in three days at the age of 57 - stupendous shock and bitterness at being fooled all my life. Daughter disfellowshipped while maried to elder - no longer believes in anything - son shunning me still. Life very good now - wonderful to be free - deeply content in older age.