I am extremely fresh out of the watchtower machine. I da'd myself in November 07. At that time i felt very spiritually weak. I had never strayed so far from the organization. I thought that I was doing the most wise thing by leaving the organization so that i could have some time to collect myself and revaluate what i wanted from life.I thought that this would be the most honest thing that i could do since i knew i was not living up to Jehovah's standards. I am one of the ones who never felt like i could do enough to please Jehovah. But i loved him so much. It was never about the organization to me. I was always a little rebelious in mind and critical of the watchtowers arguments and the power they had. But i had faith. I knew just as i know that i'm breathing that i was in the only true religion. What a waste of childhood!!!!!! Now, i feel like i'm a baby and know nothing except how wrong the watchtower is about so many things. Fortunately, my fiance, who was the one that got me in all this trouble ;) has been here for me completely. Even through my close minded arguments with him about my religion. It was all worthless until i finally realized that there was nothing wrong with examining what all the apostate hype was. I really just wanted to serve Jehovah. and well, i definetly found the truth.