I began studying in 1977 and baptized in 1978. I was married to an unbeliever at the time and had two children. My husband was an alcoholic and it was a difficult marriage. However, when I became a witness, it was worse. All of the sudden no birthdays, holidays, etc. I missed out on twenty five years of my children's birthdays, how I do regret that now. and all of those years i made nearly every meeting, field service every saturday...everything revolved around the truth. i did everything that a good witness was. my son is now is 25 years old and lives in another state. he is not married. he has had three serious relationships in the past five years that didn't work out because of his belief's and the way he was raised. the women he was involved with were all catholic and did not want to have their children raised as witnesses. even though he make it clear that he would not stand in their way to raise them in their faith. this issue has just haunted our family for years. only about two weeks ago i found this web site and my eyes are finally opening but i still don't know how to get rid of this guilt that i feel. i believe that by meeting others online, maybe i can finally move on. any help is appreciated!