i am currently somewhere in Europe, still a witness but with two rather big secrets. One i actually don't believe any of the bullshit and the other is that i am a transvestite. I don't think the two are connected :-D. I realised it wasn't the truth when i started university and started thinking critically and being able to spot BS a mile off. My personal life is slightly more complicated. My father is an elder and my mother a teacher. I have had to hide so much from them (a prediliction for putting on skirts and dresses, lord knows how many #4 talks have been prepared by me in a dress and make up) that i suppose adding "not believing the religion that i was raised in" to the list is just another thing to hide. This forum has helped me in so many different ways to at least realise i am not alone in one aspect of my otherwise content life.