I was born into this crazy religion 25 years ago and have always struggled with if I wanted to be a part of it. Like a lot of others, I have always felt unworthy and inferior. I was disfellowshipped when I was 17. Reinstated a year later b/c I knew nothing else and was just a baby living at home. I married my high school sweet heart JW at 19 and am currently divorcing him. I have finally decided it is time to leave the org and join "the land of the living" I feel a glimpse of freedom except some days the pain of my family and life long friends disowning me is overwhelming. I cry almost everyday still, even though I have some new friends and a wonderful boyfriend. It is so scary to take those first steps when you feel so alone. I am happy my room mate found this site, It will be nice to be able to have others to relate to... Message me if you have any advice..