I was raised a witness and married a witness. My husband began physically and sexually abusing me six months after we were married and after four years of marriage I filed for divorce. The next month I was disfellowshipped for having a relationship with someone new. I am now engaged to that same man and will be married this May ('06). None of my family have spoken to me in two years and I have not stepped foot in a Kingdom Hall in that time either. My new family (Fiance's parents/sibling/extended family) treat me better than my own. I am the happiest I've ever been in my entire life and have finally come to terms with the "old me" and what I was taught. I hold no animosity toward my family for instructing me in this way. It is truly what they believe is right. It takes a while, but you can overcome!