Born and raised in the troof. Got naughty in my late teen years and was disfellowshipped at age 19. I had every intention to go back, mainly for family reasons. But then I learned about the lies and mind control the JW's used. I made up my mind when I was 21 that even though I could return for my family, there was no way I would ever want to be affiliated with that group of people again. My family life is okay now, as long as conversation topics are neutral and not related to religion. Its hard for me to hold back the things I have learned, but after making many attempts I understand that there is not much you can do to loosen the grasp the society has on people who have been in for 20+ years. Pretty typical story of an ex JW I suppose!