daddys girl
JoinedI was baptized when I was 13 years old even though my parents told the elders that they did not believe I was ready because at that age I was not able to completely understand the enormity of impact that this decision would have on the rest of my life. I wanted nothing more than to make my daddy proud of me ( thus love me even more ) so I convinced them to let me do it. That was the biggest mistake of my entire life, and believe me... I've made some other HUGE mistakes. Needless to say, as I grew and developed a mind of my own, my thoughts and ideas about life changed dramaticly. I was disfellowshiped when I was 20 years old, in college, and made the huge mistake of moving in w/ my fiance, at the time, 3 months before we were to marry. My parents and little sister miss me for sure, but they will never completely understand how much I love and miss them... we have a moderate amount of contact and communication but it will never be enough for me. I have developed some resentment, can you tell?...