RebelWife
JoinedI had no religious upbringing, but leaned toward Christianity when my husband and I started dating. He had been a JW all his life, but had been disfellowshipped a couple of years before we met. His beliefs seemed important to him, so I tried to understand them by asking him questions and reading some of his literature and the bible. Of course, I became hopelessly confused. He told me he would never go back, so I wasn't concerned about it. Shortly after we were married, he told me he was going back. My biggest concern at that time was all the time that would be spent away from me. (Yes, I married him because I like being with him -- what a strange woman I am.) We had some really nasty fights -- he accused me of reading "apostate" stuff online, as if I weren't smart enough to see through their crap without any help. I did a little research and ended up here. We try not to talk about anything JW-related very often because it immediately turns into a battle. It's like instant rage. He does all sorts of things he wouldn't be allowed to do if he went back, but has been a stickler about some of the no-no's. I have learned that sowing seeds does a lot more good than trying to reason with him. Sometimes, though, the absurdity of it all gets to me, and I just can't help myself -- and here we go.