I grew up in the Witnesses as the leading pioneer's daughter, and became an unbaptized publisher when I was about 12 or 13. I disassociated myself when I was 16... not because I had noticed anything wrong with it... but because I believed I was too evil to even be deserving of being in the Witnesses. I later became Wiccan, then just plain out Pagan, and then moved on to creating my own theories about things, but I still felt that I was evil... I didn't even catch on that something was wrong with the Witnesses until several months ago! Unfortunately, I still struggle with feelings of self-doubt among other things... but I think most ex JWs, no matter how long they spend out of it, still struggle with this. yahoo: supervixen_kitten msn: [email protected] aol: astridkittie