i grew up as a JW (current age 25), and still live with my JW parents and brother. A growing feeling of social anxiety when around my JW "friends" eventually lead to full blown agoraphobia somewhere around age 20-23. The agoraphobia had kindof DisAssociated me by default, but after some months of psych help i started to formalise my DAed status (around age 24) amongst my family simply by openly questioning things like Borg JWs are not allowed to. I consider myself to be an apostate, but am terrified of other JWs viewing me as such - as my family are very socially active JWs i am often confronted with JWs (who probabaly believe i've just gone inactive). I politely hold my tounge as JWs speak of spiritual things (especially elders), careful so as not to 'out' myself. I'm quite interested in how my religious situation built up the agoraphobia i loosely struggle with, and would desperately like to touch base with other people struggling with similar issues, so i can try to work past it. I find myself in an akward limbo area - i cringe to associate with JWs, but find i hard to seek out and socialise with non-jws.