Xena,
Life and it's ups and down visits each of us. I am sure the 'glass' is almost empty with all of us sometimes. It certainly is with me right now...but, it will pass. Then I'll look at things more positively, the glass will start to fill up again. It's reality, you don't have to cover the truth, just deal with it, as best you can.
It wasn't supposed to be like this, you know? I am a middle aged divorced woman with no college degree trying to raise a daughter pretty much on my own. Most of my life I believed I was never going to get old....never get divorced...never have to worry about retirement or putting my kid thru college....my parents were never supposed to die and my sisters were supposed to love me forever....
Except for the part I drew a line thru...all the above is true for me, too. I have 3 daughters, I have been shunned for 7.5 years thanks to their mother -- a JW. Recently, tho' my eldest girl has been making a lot of good contact with me. The glass fills ...a little. I was very lucky...4 years after my separation, I met a great lady...we were married -- 6 months ago! The glass fills...a lot more. 7 years on my own...alone.
Like the other poster that got married 8 months ago...against all odds -- 3,000 miles away. If you desire that, it will happen to you, too. Just relax and let it happen.
Oh, Talesin wishes she could be at the ChiliFest, she told me she especially wanted to meet ...you. She admires you alot and asked me to give ya' a 'bighug' when I see ya' there -- for her...
da Wabbit