i was just talking to my mom a few weeks ago.
she said, out of all her kids, i was the only one she didn't have to worry about as far as spirituality.
i always took a stand for jehovah.. she told when all of her kids were little, she gave us the option of not eating birthday cakes in school.
some on this board are too hasty and mess things up others don't say a thing and stay in.
This is true.
I thought I may have blown it in my case. At first...
I am so glad to be fully out, away and free of this very toxic group.
Everyone will do their own thing.
Telling our story is good for healing.
( all of us )
how many of us were woken up by some apostate yelling false prophets at a convention?.
how many of us were woken up by someone holding a sign and yelling, what happened to 1975.
how many of us were coerced to investigate the wt because some ex-jw pulled up a bunch of old watchtowers magazines and told us to read the false predictions?.
The hypocrisy was so amazing in my old hall here in Napa.
It was an endless parade of drama and power struggles, cliques and just overall meddling. Some criminal activity happened that was completely ignored by the BOE and two COs.
It got to be where even after finally resigning as a MS after nearly 10 years I could no longer tolerate the meetings any longer. Sometimes I would have to leave during the final song or prayer because I was starting to cry it felt so wrong being there. I didn't want to draw any unwanted attention to myself, so I started slipping out early and then abruptly quit. I tried for my wife's sake to make a return after a few months. It was not working and the meeting where the "Silver Sword" was released would be my last.
After I quit attending, then started obsessive researching on the internet. 2-10 hours a day- every day- for over a year.
I woke up quick and had a pretty solid fade going until I made serious of amazing an unusual moves ( from a human stand point ) and found myself DF'd for "admitted apostasy" about a month ago~
Glad to be out and returning to normalcy.
hey!
i've been hanging around her for a while.
this is the third attempt at my 'hello'.
Welcome to the forum.
Is your partner attending meetings with the intent of being reinstated?
Your job is to wake him up using the tools on this site so as to enjoy life.
blondies highlights from the10-11-2015 wt study (august 15, 2015), pages (14-18) .
for pictures see this link.
opening comments.
I'm "torturing myself" by listening in to the WT study on the phone while my still-in JW attends.
Someone mentioned 1975 and how long they have been waiting.
They were happy because more 'people get to live" as a result.
Hmmm, she forgot how many get to die the longer "this system goes on".
The meeting sounds just like when I started attending in 1988....
the number of pyramids in the world just keep going up and up.
an egyptoligist thinks using satellite scanning technology he has found the remnants of another 17 pyramids in the egypt.
in central and south american they keep finding more pyramids and in java a couple of years ago they surmised that the riuns their was actually a step pyramid possible the oldest in the world.
WT is waiting to unveil a "hidden" pyramid under their remote controlled lake at Warwick. It contains "new light" on making more money without the R&F noticing. Really cool stuff...
Seriously, though, pyramids are very interesting.
It is a fact that they cannot be duplicated using modern methods, nor are the building methods completely understood. This not even fully explain the purpose of them.
Mercury, the element, has been found in large quantities in some of them. Mercury is super weird. Do a little digging online.
Then look at some of the hieroglyphs that depict "energy beams".
I think civilization has had quite a few "resets" over the course of time.
And I'm talking longer than 6,000 years ago, too!
ok, i didnt think anything about it.
but last night some friends from across the city called me up and said that the co was visiting their hall and in his talk he said that the society is getting geared up for a massive kingdom hall and assembly hall construction project worldwide next year.
they told the publishers; "get ready".
Maybe, they put this out there, the work stoppage, to set up the apostates into publishing "lies".
Very sneaky, WT bethel internet truth corporation helpers!
( WT b.i.t.c.h. )
hi... i am new and after nearly 20 years after being disassociated at 15 i would like to make contact with others who have similar difficulties.
my mother was disfellowshipped shortly after my rebellion and had all ties with both her mother and brother cut and that remains the case.. just really hacked off with not being able to put things in the proper place in my life after all these years.
for the record i don't know if i believe in god but am searching for some peace as i seem to self destruct on a regular basis.. any ideas anyone?.
Welcome to yet another member!
Take your time, pace yourself.
What happened to ALL of us was not OUR FAULT.
It's not loving to treat anyone the way JWs do.
From Napa Valley!
thoughts triggered from a comment cappytan made on a different thread:.
cappytan the newest guy in the gang, mark sanderson, is no exception [to being a gb helper at some point].
- w2013 7/15 p.26 a new member of the governing body"in september 2010, [mark sanderson] was invited to return to the united states, where he served as a helper to the service committee of the governing body.".
I think this has serious implications. The doctrine is flawed and exposed for any and all to see that would like to. JWFACTS.COM
In the JW world, sadly, this is nothing...
"Anointed, scha-nointed!
We used to celebrate Christmas!"
i don't know what to do.... i married last year and things have been very rocky.
we dated for 4 years and did have normal issues but always had a lingering doubt something was just not right in our relationship-behavior to be more specific, he is not a jw, but i am.
yes i know i married outside the "lord" but after my first marriage to a jw ended in divorce for physical abuse, i was glad i didn't married another jw.
Those symptoms do not sound "high functioning" to me.
Limited focus, meltdowns, emotional disconnects, and distractions of everyday life need to be managed.
My anxiety and meltdowns I have experienced are almost exclusively JW cult exit related. The other day it took several hours before I felt like going out for the day. Couple of times I just had to lay down. Sometimes a dark room can help get one back on track.
My weakness is people that genuinely act terrible in front of me.
I used to just ignore them and let it go. After being taken advantage of for so many years in WT, I refuse to let people screw with me. This tends to get me into hot water...
You are welcome to PM me if you like.
i don't know what to do.... i married last year and things have been very rocky.
we dated for 4 years and did have normal issues but always had a lingering doubt something was just not right in our relationship-behavior to be more specific, he is not a jw, but i am.
yes i know i married outside the "lord" but after my first marriage to a jw ended in divorce for physical abuse, i was glad i didn't married another jw.
There are varying degrees of affliction in the autism/Aspergers spectrum.
Anywhere from barely able to cope with anything to "high functioning".
My JW wife believes I am the latter. I tend to agree.
I find myself at times taking things too serious or too literal and this can cause a social conflict. Sometimes it takes special convincing to help me see an obvious mistake most others see.
What type of behaviors/routines are difficult for you/him to cope with?
