If u could accomplish one major goal, but could only do it by admitting 'apostasy' - would you? Remember, just one goal could be accomplished by this feat.
Example; your mate would also depart the 'truth' with you, or your best friend in the 'truth' would agree to still secretly speak and associate with you. But only one goal would happen - all others would remain unfilled. Would you do it- and what reward would you have to have to do so, and get peace of mind?
You get the idea. You get the piece of pie, but not the whole pie.....
In my case - if I could have a guaranteed association with my cousin, who has been my best friend for life, I would do it in a heartbeat.
Jeff