.........Threads that have copies of official WBTS letters and documents or anything else that may help me compose a letter to elder father. I am 32 years old and still cannot communicate to him verbally how I feel. So I am going to write it down. It will probably take me weeks to write this letter but I feel like I need to do it so that I can begin to heal.
A week or so ago I saw a post here about how hard it is to just talk to people since we no longer have a prepared sermon. (such as for ministry school or door to door) When I read that I realized just how much my life is affected from being raised a JW. I have a terrible time expressing myself. It is difficult for me to parent my children because I am afraid of making them feel like I did as a child. My JW brother is getting married soon and I have done nothing but cry about this because I know that when he has kids that they will actually have involved grandparents.
Anyway I would appreciate any help you can give me.