Welcome to the forum Blue Shadow and Momof5 (wow, 5 kids! )
I think that it is sometimes difficult to realise, when you first leave the JWs, that there are others out there who are ExJWs and they've also managed to be very comfortable and confident in their choice of religion. What I mean is, there are ExJWs who are very spiritual Christians. These people have gone back to the basics of the bible and have realised that the WTS's interpretation may not be correct.
There are others here who do not believe. They've probably gone through much of the questioning and simply concluded that after looking at scientific evidence aswell as the background of the bible (please look into that if you can....non-jw material about the bible abounds) - they simply can't believe in an Almighty God.
What matters, I suppose, is that you as individuals follow the right path for YOU. I'm not saying ignore your conscience, I'm not saying be selfish. I'm saying you must examine for yourself what is true and what is not true. That examination is so much more than just reading the Watchtower publications - SO much more. Read about a lot of things from a lot of sources. If you want your questions regarding Christianity answered, why not get hold of a Christian theology book (I'm sure people here would give good recommendations if you asked for it). Whichever books you read, you are still able to think critically about them - you don't have to accept them as truth - you just need to be open minded enough to mull over what you've read and assess if it "fits".
If you read read read and question question question, you could even find yourself back at the Kingdom Hall. At least then you'd know that your choice to attend the JWs was the right choice for you. However, you might just find a belief system which really does make sense to you (minus the apparent control and deception that you'll find in a cult).
Then years from now, when you are confident that you're on the right path spiritually, you'll meet someone who totally disagrees with your stance. (I get this all the time with people like FunkyDerek). The thing is, this won't be too much of a problem for you, because for once in your life you'll have read around the subject, you'll have made your own mind up (instead of it being made up for you as it usually is in the JW religion) - you'll be able to have healthy debates about it.
Then you won't need to ask whether celebrating Christmas is OK because you'll know.
I think that's the best advice I can give.
I hope you are blessed in your search.